Bad Dreams

 

Last night I had a dream that I had to speak at  my mom’s funeral. And she wasn’t an old person. She was the age she is now. And it was a scary thing. I don’t want to think about having to bury either one of my parents. I know it was just a dream but the sadness I felt was so real. I felt my heart just breaking inside as I spoke about how although my mom and I butt heads a lot, I love her more than anything in this world. There was a casket in front of me with her lying in it, looking peaceful and at rest. Not a worried look on her face. I saw my dad on the front row crying like I’ve never seen him cry before… And THAT broke my heart even more. I still get heart broken just thinking about it. No child wants to think about burying their parents and no parent should bury their child.

Now here is what is weird about dreams, I don’t have dreams that I remember the next day that often. Maybe once every few months. But when I do remember them, I remember every detail. Good or bad, I remember. Why? Because they feel so amazingly real! Every laughter, every hug, every heart break, every tear.

With my sad dream out of my system, when I go to bed tonight, I ‘m going to hug my mom and tell her “I love you”. I hope you do the same. And if you can’t hug your parents, just look up and say it… They will hear you!

Holding a Grudge

 

What does the bible say about holding a grudge? Ephesians 4: 26-27 says: “Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil.”

Now, why do people hold grudges? What’s the point? It only makes you extremely bitter! It gives Satan the opportunity to win you over. And did I mention it makes you bitter?

Here is what you should do about that: “Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil. For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.” - Psalm 37: 8-9

And if you are angry with someone, do what Luke 6:37 says: “Forgive and you will be forgiven.”

I am not the type of person to hold a grudge. I think about certain situations from time to time. I think about how I should have handled it. Now, I do get defensive if I feel someone is “attacking” me and some may take that as getting angry. But it takes A LOT to make me angry. And I also forgive easier than most to. I don’t always follow the saying “Forgive and Forget.” I go by my saying of “Forgive, but be wary.” I’m become leery because of how the person acted towards me. Almost like “should I trust them?” I’m afraid of getting whiplash from someone’s personality.

My opinion is don’t be a Bitter Betty. Forgive.. Forgiving is the only way to properly move on. Holding grudges for a long period of time will only show the devil that you are willing to let him win. And possibly take over your life.

Now that I am done with the rambling, I will leave you with some wise words of Steve from the show “Reba” -- “Just leditgo!!